thanks mira for that piece of advice at the bottom of your latest entry. i've realised that this is my journey. this is my life. i create the road as i walk. i shudn't care abt whatever people thinks of me, the way i lead my life and also the decisions i made. cuz basically, this is my life not theirs. im so MUCH happier now cuz i noe ive been loved by the people around me. my family, friends and him. i can feel it. therefore, im thankful to ALLAH for sending these people in my life. truthfully, ive made my decisions and i hope that i'll never regret it. i hoped that he can proves to me how much i meant to him and never let me down. still, im still having doubts abt the both of us. but i aint gonna let those unwanted shits to ruin my life and make it miserable time and again.

the oceans just left my hs for rayer-ing. shaikh rayered at my hs for three times already. hehe. -.- they must be dead hungry cuz they finished their food like in a couple of mins? haaa. except for syaqirin. he's the last one to finished his food. hee. its nice seeing them once again esp kay. theyre so kecohrable. ohyea, we took group photos.. =] OHYES, syafeeq[gc] told me that he broke up with vega already. i couldnt believe my HUGE ears..heh. really. i was so shocked. but, i thought it was a joke and i asked shaikh and kay. they swored that its true like nobodies' business. shaikh even asked me to bring th holy quran. -______-''' HAHA. then, kay asked me to called him so i did. he told me everything abt syafeeq and vega. cuz i thought theyre sucha sweet and loving couple and they seemed so peaceful. i was mistaken, indeed. SIGHS. vega must be in distraught now cuz apparently they just broke up just now. they've been together for quite a long time and now its over.. SIGHSS. whatever it is, i hope for the best for both syafeeq and vega. may ALLAh bless them.

I thought I could resist you. I thought that I was strong. Somehow you were different from what I've known. I didn't see you coming. You took me by surprise and you stole my heart again before I could say no.

.radyn.